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Discovery

In the course of writing practice just now, I made a discovery.  I have said that I wish to bind wounds with the gauze of spirit through art. I previously thought that this meant to do art– and when people looked at it their wounds might be bound. Now I realize that by drawing nature and other subjects, I am binding wounds as I give loving attention to the subject of the drawing. If others find it healing, that’s fine. But the wound-binding happens as I do the work, to whatever it is I am drawing (and wherever else the energy is supposed to go). I’m almost embarrassed to admit I didn’t “get it” before this!

Today I remembered the tower niche insert, and recalled how I took joy in maintaining it while we lived in the Cushendall Tower. I worked on the niche spontaneously and naturally. I was drawn to the niche even before I got there, but I didn’t realize why it beckoned to me until I actually began to clean it and did the paintings that reflected the moon, stars, and crows*. It was a kind of stitching heaven to earth:

Peace mounts to the heavens, the heavens descend to earth, earth lies under the heavens, everyone is strong.    

–Victory Song of the Morrigan, Book of Fermoy***

Drawing the Fairy Hill (Cushendall, N. Ireland, Sept 18, 2111)

***

The Book of Fermoy RIA MS 23 E 29

The Book of Fermoy was written in 1373 by Adam ó Cianáin on twenty-two folios. The first eight folios are still bound together, while the other fourteen were split off, and now form the “Stowe Fragment” held at the same library.

The manuscript contains The Book of Invasions, “Fosterage of the Houses of the Two Milk Vessels” (both of the Mythological Cycle), “The Wooing of Emer,” (the Ulster Cycle) “The Adventures of Art son of Conn” (the Kings Cycle), The Voyage of Bran, and many more stories, with numerous variations with those found in other manuscripts.

*The Morrígan is a goddess of battle, strife, and sovereignty. She sometimes appears in the form of a crow, flying above the warriors, and in the Ulster cycle she also takes the form of an eel, a wolf and a cow. (http://en.wikipedia.org/)

Turnly Tower Niche, Cushendall, N. Ireland (Sept 4, 2011)

 

Words of Clarity on Photography from Carl Johnson

Carl Johnson

“Pam, you get a different feel from Ansel Adams’ stuff compared to those “extreme Photoshop” images because some people are not familiar with restraint, or, they are trying to create a graphic illustration more than they are trying to adjust an image so that it reflects the artist’s impression of the scene. Ansel Adams would push his negatives and prints to fulfill a vision of what he saw and felt, not to create something that wasn’t there at all.”
(I had shared with Carl how extreme Photoshop treatment was eroding my trust level with some photography. He had mentioned Ansel Adams, so I said that Ansel Adams’ work left a very different impression on me. This was his answer, which hits the nail on the head.)

Unity Awareness

Summer Drive-By (July 20, around 12:30 pm, Anchorage, AK)

I woke up this morning realizing how hard it is to transcend duality consciousness. The perception of an “other” is a reminder that there is still some path ahead of me. In a state of divine love, there is no other. There are those who have realized this who have had destinies of monastic-type lives. There are those who have realized this who have lived fully in this life amid the din and roar. Wherever we have been placed, it is the perfect place to come to Self* recognition.

*The Self is that which by its very nature is indivisible. All things appears as reflections inside of the Self. When we identify with a fragment, believing that we are that fragment only, this is described as wrong identification (a term used by G.I. Gurdjieff). I don’t believe it is really “wrong.” But in this state there is always at least an underlying sense of deprivation and lack of contentment. In the end, we will not be satisfied until we reach divine awareness and supreme inner peace.

Entering the Void with the Eyes Open

Peonies 1 (July 18, 2012, around 7:30 am, Anchorage, AK)
Peonies 2 (July 18, 2012, around 7:30 am, Anchorage, AK)

In time, when the yogi’s practice of meditation matures, he begins to experience unmilana-samadhi, open-eyed absorption. In other words, from the state of nimilana samadhi, he opens his eyes and his awareness remains absorbed in the Self even though he is in the state that comes after meditation (vyutthana) with his senses fully operating. The term vyutthana means ‘to rise’ or ‘to wake up,’ which I like to think means that, in the most expansive expression of waking consciousness, one has awakened to the perception of external objects bathed in the Great Light of Consciousness.

— Swami Shantananda, The Splendor of Recognition